Psalm 139:23-24

'Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts. And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.' Psalm 139:23-24

An imperfect physical heart I have just discovered. God will heal at His timing and in His way, that is not for me to ponder. But God looks for a heart that seeks to worship Him, that is for me to work on by His enabling grace.

May this new leg of my journey with Him and you, be truly a heartfelt time of joy in the presence of our Perfect God, Whose Spirit is at this very moment, not just residing in our hearts, but transforming our hearts to be truly the temple for His Spirit.

It is indeed time to come back to the heart of our faith, to live a life where God is the heart of our worship. Do take time to listen to the song "Heart of the Worship" below.

God Blesses
Eng Hieang(25th Sep 2011)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Heart to heart #29 Out of my comfort zone (20th June 2012)

Dear....

'...Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.'
            James 4:17

Many of us wrestle with our extrapolated fears as to what is ahead. We ponder upon the wisdom of decisions made at every twin fork of life. We desire for the conclusions our finite self perceive,  as to what is needed for our comfort, albeit it will be temporal and flawed.

This opening verse comes from James chapter 4, whose main thrust was about "Boasting about tomorrow." A cautionary reminder to all that life is unpredictable and living is only by the grace of God for we are but a breath away from eternity. But like the small but significant side lanes, it is this specific verse James 4:17 that reached out to my very being at this moment.

'He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God. And being fully convinced that what He had promised He was able to perform. And therefore it was accounted to him for righteousness'
        Romans 4:20-22

God is in control, but there is a need for a response from us, to do His will. Would you honor Him always, even if circumstances and personal wants seem to point otherwise? The carnal us always look for a conclusion in the midst of our circumstances, God desires that we not just trust His Sovereignty, but that we respond in faith by honoring Him in our daily living, even while we wait upon Him.

'Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in  Christ Jesus.'
      1 Thessalonians 5:16

'...that men always ought to pray and not lose heart.'
      Luke 18:1

The past 4 years through the sub prime crisis, where my place of employ was in the eye of the storm, to the inevitable follow through painful consequences, prayers girded my life, for it brought me onto close communion with the omnipresent God. And perplexed sometimes I was, but never crushed, and joyful and at peace I was, for there were many things to be thankful for to our great God.

'No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other......You cannot serve God and mammon.'
        Matthew 6:24

'Now the Lord had said to Abram: "Get out of your country. From your family. And from your father's house to a land that I will show you and make your name great. And you shall be a blessing....'
        Genesis 12:1-3

Today, marks a new beginning for me. A new birth (how apt that today June 20th is my 51st birthday) in leaving my place of comfort(Merrill Lynch) of the past 17 years, and by faith, honoring my commitment to God made in Dec 2011, to step out and  to give Him my all.
Moses and Abram were called by God at a much older age, guess I am a youthful senior citizen compared to them.

'So Abram departed as the Lord had spoken to  him....'
        Genesis 12:4

But unlike Abram, I struggled very much these past few months as to the wisdom of this decision. Like Abram, God has already given me enough provisions. Yet like Abram, I struggle with the perceived "giants" in this new endeavor.  Yet, unlike Abram, who lied twice about his wife Sarai being his sister(see Genesis 12:12-13) I know God will divinely intervene and carry me forth, much as I am imperfect, for my heart wants to be aligned to His will.

"Am I a God near at hand," says the Lord. And not a God afar off?"
      Jeremiah 23:23-24

'Be of good courage, and let us be strong for our people and for the cities of our God. And may the Lord do what is good in His sight.'
      2 Samuel 10:12

Evil has manifested itself blatantly in our present world. And one no longer can be oblivious to the relentless pursuit of self interest without regard for the well being of others. Greed and fear have always been the twin headed serpent that wraps itself round our present economic system.  I believe God has lifted the veil in the hearts of followers of Christ to be the beacon that will shine forth in this intensifying and suffocating darkness. The past decade has been a time of preparation. Are we now willing to live out our faith fully in our workplace and wherever God places you and believe that in honoring God, He will honor us? You are either of the world or not of the world, for the days of striking a fine balance is over.

'No one should be shaken by these afflictions, for you yourselves know that we are appointed to this..'
      1 Thessalonians 3:3

He sought God in the days of Zechariah, who had understanding in the visions of God; and as long as he sought the Lord, God made him prosper."
      2 Chronicles 26:5

Will replacing greed and fear with Godly contentment(thankfulness in all circumstances) and stewardship( dependency upon God always) ensure one's quick demise in the present Babylonian economic system? Or counter intuitive as it may be, it is the balm to the present woes of our fallen world, which is in the throes of replacing the Babylonian system with what someone termed 'the beastly system.'

'The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved; He uttered His voice, the earth melted.'
        Psalm 46:6

As I close these thoughts, and prepare to enter into a period of rest and reflection for 3 months, before embarking on this next phase of my walk in the market place  with our Lord, I am reminded of the deep impression that God placed in my heart in early 2008, "to buy physical gold."
Is it déjà vu that just recently I made my first purchase of physical silver? Coincidence or not, I just read that silver was the currency of choice in old Babylon. Will it reprise it's role in a world that is increasingly flooded with paper monies? It is a matter of time the world will be rudely awakened to the reality that their savings are being devalued by the irresponsible governments, that paper money has lost its store of value. When all hell break loose, only those who bought not physical gold, but rather gold as refined by our Lord, will not just be  unshakeable, but used by Him to minister to those around us.

'.....Because the hand of the Lord my God was on me, I took courage and gathered leading men from Israel to go up with me.'
      Ezra 7:28

This is the time to do value investing. As in our godly character, in living and leading by example, a life of Christ-likeness, for you and the people you shepherd, to be made ready to be the lamps on the hill, to be the storehouses in the midst of great impending upheaval, when governments fall and anarchy scars once civil societies,that will make the sub prime crisis look like a Sunday tea party.

'...yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?
      Esther 4:14

'And He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature...'
      Mark 16:15

Will you answer the call? Will you move forth out of your comfort zone as His Spirit moves you? Will you look at and lived out your daily work as a calling, a vocation through which we serve God and glorify Him?

'..not with eye service, as menpleasers, but as bond servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, with goodwill doing service, as to the Lord, and not to men...'
      Ephesians 6:5-7

And I know I will be successful His way, for I serve our Great God. Do pray for me that I not forget that all glory is to our Lord.

'But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the Lord his God....'
    2 Chronicles 26:16

God blesses

Eng hieang
(20th  June 2012)

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